We will understand it better by and by...

Today I stumbled across a blog. The blog is for a lady that lost her daughter at 4 months last month. As I started reading the blog all of these emotions surfaced, sadness for her and her husband, for her family for losing such a sweet little angel all to soon. Then the all to familiar feelings of grief surfaced from a year ago. Feelings that surface often but today they were strong. I scooped up my baby girl(who is also 4 months) and sobbed. I sobbed for those moms who would never get to hold their babies again. Then I thanked God for my babies and for them being alive.

See I know what its like to lose a baby, a baby that was growing inside of you, kicking small kicks. I know what its like to give birth to a baby that's already sleeping, already wrapped in God's arms. To plan and go to a small memorial service and see a tiny coffin and visit the grave site of a baby you had so many hopes and dreams for. Its awful, its unbelievably painful and not a day goes by that I do not think of him but to lose a child that you have cuddled with, kissed, felt the warmth of their skin, heard coo and smile. A child you have seen LIVE and thrive, has to magnify that grief and pain I felt by a million.

Life is short(to short for some) and very fragile. We take it for granted daily, we do that with a lot of things. If we only stopped some times to remember all those people who have lost someone or how easily and quickly some leave this earth we'd stop and smell the roses, tell the ones we love them how much we do, we'd hug longer, visit longer...

Its so easy to get frustrated with our kids(anyone really), especially as they get older. To fuss and yell over toys and home work. To rush the time we have with them. I'm not judging, I do it, we all do. I just wanted to take the time out to remind us all to just STOP, breath in your children and the people you love. Rejoice and be thankful we have them and say a pray for all those people out there who don't have the chance to do so any more.

** There is an auction being held for the family in the blog I mentioned, for more information go here.